Wild water lillies, says my dad. I snapped this in Riding Montain Park on the boreal trail hike, on Dad's Day! Man I miss trees! And being in the bush! Gah, there are just NO adventures to be found around here, unless you count the occacional time I get really liquored up and have an "idea" *devil grin* Hey I don't make you go along with me, but most people opt to do it. Maybe that's why I was the kid every mom hated to see show up on the door step? Hahaha. "Crap, it's that one." I am a very good girl now considering. But most likely it's cuz I lack that partner in crime.
You see I have a husband and of course he's my best friend. And my roomate, I like him a bunch. But I don't feel like I can tell him the fucked up shit anymore like I use to. Before he was a confidant and now I don't know I just feel like I"m annoying him with it. So it's pretty much been a few years since I had that connection. I've met some other alright people....but I still lack her. You're best girl buddy that you cause mayhem and chaos every where the two of you go. Which idealy is wherever the fuck we want :D All the girls who fit that catagory live far far away from me. Hell not even in the same province as 'em. :(
It's just I'm so bitterly lonely here. I don't think people get what it's like. I mean we got a cat 5 or 6 monthes after I got here. Atleast she'd spend time with me. Seriously that cat kept me sane....or some degree of it anyways. I would have alot of worse days without her. But yah, there's my great understanding, my un judging ears, a 5 year old Bombay named Minwu. Pretty pathetic I know. This city doesn't get me and I honestly feel like I never stood a chance in the first place.
Why did I sleep only 4 hours? Gah, today is going to be brutal. Hopefully I can nap halfway through the morning for a couple more hours. That's pretty much the only way to salvage a good day outta this. Otherwise I'm gonna feel like death warmed over by 4. Ya know that horrible kind of tired where your body is sore and feels heavy, but your brain won't cram a sock in it and shut up so you can catch up on your Zzzzz's? I have a feeling....one of those days. Man I am in a foul mood right now. I pretty much am expecting/percieving/feeling like crap, for lack of a more elloquent word.
I'm crawling back into bed.
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