So yah, I broke my foot *shrug*

Ohh yes, some day I will have my gator tatty...and it will be marvalous. Just to figure out where to stick the little bugger. I know that fucked up eye is going on the back of my neck. The yellow rose, in memory of my grandfather, either calf or other shoulder. I'd really like to get it on the neck or forarm, but ya no one's gonna like that from an employment standered...unless I never kick disability. That's quite a possiblity. The gator I don't know where the hell to put it.

Every tattoo I have means something to me. I think the most sentimental will be my yellow rose. Girly tattoo, yes. Under normal circumstances I would stay away from that one, but this is different. A yellow rose was my grandfathers favorite flower. But there's an even sweeter twist...I'm not completely evil. :P See my grandmothers name was Rose, but she died when my mom was 5 or 6, so ya in the 50's. After that grandpa hit the bottle hard until I was born in '81. It's kind of like honouring both of them. This is one tatty I can get away with. There is no way my mom would yell at me for such a moment.

We all miss him. My grandpa was my hero. I could tell you stories, but there isn't simply not enough time or space. Rest assured he was a very unique indivual. So caring. He looked after 30 - 50 homeless cats. He's spend his pention checks to feed them with fine meat from the abitore. Heart of gold, in the world on Neil Young.

I suppose it's all sentiment, but now is the time to reflect since I can't do much else. Hopefully I get a tatty for Christmas from J. It could happen. I got my sis her first tattoo when she turned 18 and was legal to get it. *crosses fingers* I honestly can't think of anything I want more. Well I wish there was a horrific circumstance I could fix for my family...but I can't. Somethings don't have a cure. And I doubt we'll see it in this life time.

Sometimes they're things I can't fix. I hate that. I don't want to accept it, but I have no other choice. A cure will never be found in this life time. And if you're thinking I'm talking about me and my problems, you're wrong. If I could catch a leprachan or hold a genie hostage I would in an instant put another's health more them mine. That's Love.