If only J would wake up!

Hahahaha, man that makes me laugh. Stupid pictures are one of the few things I still like on the internet.

So it's been an fast/slow few days. It feels like someone has a remote and their 3 year old is pushing fast forward and pause. Whatever, I'm not even sure that makes sense. Alot of things don't make sense to me.

I can't relate.

Nothing. I think it's a pretty good indication that my brain is up to it's old antics. When I get so disociated I don't even think most things are real. Illusion, I think that's what we live in. Or, we're a bunch of Sims...if so please don't build a kitchen fire and place me in the middle of it. I know, I know, so guilty of doing it to them. But technically they were marked for horrid deaths before they we're created.

Makes me wonder. You get all these christains telling you god has a plan, and blah blah blah. Everything is as it's suppose to, blah blah blah. Then why the fuck would you do this to my head? Fucker. That is if you're out there. I don't have a religious belief....I just don't care. I don't think any of them are right. Seriously, if the world does have some sort of creator do you honestly think you're smart enough to figure out the master plan? I'd call you an ego-maniac.

The whole thing, not just the christians but zelots from all faiths, just seems so bizzare. A bunch of crazy gods and goddesses that you think control your fate? Really? Doesn't that take personal responcibility out of it? And stop before you give me that god gave us the ability to make decisions. That completely conctradicts the plan crap. Plans need steps to work, they usually kill the hell outta you're freedom....side note, I hate plans...they just fuck up anyways. I don't even know why I'm talking about this.

In the end, every life is singular. Atleast that's how I see it. That indeed gives an individual to choose to beleive or not anything they want. I have no problems with people who follow a philosiphy ( they remain as philosiphies to me ). I guess I just don't understand why. Shit happens, fated or not, either way we don't know the answer. We never will so long as we breathe and depend on this frail body for our vehicle. So why worry? Random or not, we don't know. We just need to figure out what to do from that point on.

Ohh...Rocket Man just popped up on the player....haha yes I like Elton John too. Fuck you if you have a problem with that. He's awesome :)

"...burning out his fuse up here alone...."