When is it time to let go?

Resentment. Anger. Rage. Wrath. Hostility. Irritablility. Annoyance. All traits and factors that go with my disorder. I get mad for no reason alot of the time. But what if sometimes there is a good reason?

I struggle with this. I've taught myself that it's so "bad" to feel this way towards people that it "must" be wrong. The fault must lie in me. If you don't follow the reasoning don't feel bad, the reason is full of mental illness talking. Then again, there has to be times when my anger is right, when it's justified. And ya, don't give me any pacifist bullshit.....To warp a tori amos quote " I DON"T beleive in peace bitch." Alls I did was add the Don't :D

See I have these certain people in my life, I would say 4 of them. Spilt across the gender divide equally. One man you'll get zero info on....this isn't that kind of page. Let's just say I dislike him for the the things he did and I know I'll never get the appology I deserve....or any of us deserve for that matter. The next man was a dirty garbage can, never dating someone out of pity again. The last 2 chicks were suppose to be friends of mine. One freaked out at me for no real reason like three years ago and still hasn't talked to me. And the other......we play nice. But she left me a really nasty msg a few years ago, this girl ain't forgotten. Best part she did it annoymous(like all the brave people on the net) and got ratted out by her roommate....haha who happens to like me as a person. Haha, it was a pretty good laugh.

But their crimes remain. I can forgive big things....I have. There are some people my own mother gets mad at me for still continuing to talk to. Because according to her they're bad for me. Users and losers....and she's been right alot. I do tend to make poor friend choices. I always pick the erratic destructive ones. Awesome.

So how do I deal with real anger? This stuff can't be bottled anymore.....there's too much pressure. I would personally like to go and rip the fucking faces off of each one of them right now, but I won't. Hahaha, I don't have the money to travel *wink*

In a while Crocadiles~