Everyone is telling me that things are looking "up" but I can't help but have a feeling of doom or dread or whatever. Something negative is looming. Something is telling me that. Change is comming but it's not bring anything welcome. It's bringing more unpleasnent news since it has been since Easter of last year. It will let up...I know it will. But it's not done. I just wish I knew what it was. God I hate feeling the vibrabrations but not being able to know who or what to attch them too, it's a horried waiting game. Usually they give me a peek, but not this time. That's what freaks me out....I'm left completely blind. Just brace yourself, the form, the person, surprise.
So Dr. Marcoux finally filled out my form, now I have a chunk I have to do and then toss it in the mail. Gah, who knows how long it'll take them to take them to get it to review it. And when they do, if they'll reaprove it. They should. Everyone I know, shakes their head like "hell NO" when asked if they think I should go to work again. I don't think I should. Who wants to be dealing with a store employee and then all of a sudden have that worker flip phsycotic and paranoid...haha not idea. Nothing like a lunitic running around the place screaming " I am the angle of death." Haha cuz one time I totally did. Another time I thought deamons lived in showers...interesting where these ideas come from.
Anyways, I'm going to maybe consult some oruculs, definitly the tatrot and see if I figure out what the hell this feeling is all about.
Later Gators
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