Man I NEED my clonazepam O_O!!!

Alright I didn't have my 4 mg's of c-pam last night cuz I ran out. And I won't have any for tonight either. I don't know, if i'll have any for tomorrow night either...god I can't take this. I'm slipping dude. I'm at the end of my rope here. Panic Panic Panic. These breathing exercises that Dave taught me not working. Nothing is working. I can't do this. I need my c-pam. I need it bad. I'm gonna freak out. I'm already rocking back and forth.....it's soothing for now. My breathing is erratic. I wannna cry but I won't let myself. O god, How am I going to make it another day? God I wanna self injure, anything to distract. I can't do this. I'm not strong enough. I can't do it. Here they come streaming down my face like rain on a window. Fuck Fuck Fuck. Kill me, Just do it. I give up.............