yah, so about the 30th

So upon my horror the 30th is my 29 birthday. Fuck, I'm so old I use to ride raptors to school....atleast I wish I did. Man that'd be sweet ass cool. Totally bitchen. I should be taking a shower right now, but there's no music in there. I can't explain it, I NEED it. Haha, I'm a junky. So I will admit this is an old photo, about 6 years BUT that's what's wicked fantastic about it. Let me tell you a mini story...I promise it'll be mini :)

See I moved to that other horrible place I hate. Took a mood stabalizer, that made me gain like 65 -70 pounds. I was working out at the gym 4-5 a week, eating better, didn't matter. Still got nailed. Messed with your metabolism I guess. So it didn't stabalize anything, pulled me from the stupid drug. I was on it for like 8 monthes. That's it dude. All that weight in 8 fucking months. I was pissed.

So I said come hell or high water, it's going. I'm getting back to size tiny...and I HAVE! Dude the first 20 came of easy but the last 55 wouldn't fucking leave. I did and tried everything. And then me and my old friend Topamax met up again. Topamax is the most effective drug I've ever been on, ecpt the last time we had to pull it cuz the dosage I was on was too high (twice of what i'm taking now) It made my kindney's bleed and then gave me a seziure...best time ever. But this time...sooo different. I suffered through the first few monthes of wanting to die, cuz trust me it's one bitch of a drug. But I'm a lucky bitch, I got nailed with one of it's good yet odd side effects for a psyc med.....wieght loss :D

I wieghed 155 pounds like 4 maybe 5 monthes ago, haha now a giant 98. Haha, fucking 98 pounds. Dude, that's what I wieghed in and after high school. It's fucking great. At my lightest I was 94, I have no idea if Topamax is done with me or not, but it's bitchen. All of a sudden I have all these fucking adorable/cute clothes I can wear again. It's like a mass shopping spree. Haha I went out and celebrated by buying a new bikini...it's damn cute. Oh and before you freak out about the 98 pound thing I'm 5 foot nothing. Go google a BMI index throw in the info, it's heathly.

But ya wanna a self esteem boost? Lose 57 pounds, haha did the trick for me. I missed being a skinny bitch. So yah that's an old picture of me...and I posted it just to point out that I'm smaller then that now. Let's hear it for the petite chiciquta's in the world!!! We rawk babes. They may underestemate us because of our size, but that's only once the wrath has been unleashed!! \m/